Afraid of what?!

I've never been one to be ashamed or embarrassed of my struggles, weakness or my "negative" qualities. There are SO many things I am afraid of. If you are smart, you know, we often tend to think too much. Thinking too much in my case usually leads to a laundry list of fears, things to avoid and people to push as far back in my mind as possible. 

This past week, the romantic relationship in my life was ended. It was a great relationship and nothing could ,even my bitterness ,make me lose sight of that, but it did get me to start thinking about fear. I suddenly became aware of what I am afraid of when I was trying to think of different ways to drive to work so I wouldn't have to drive past his street....where to begin. I am afraid of:::

1. Driving past his street and going to any of the places we've been to together in my new CT home and surrounding towns 

2. Squatting- since I had my knee surgery in December, I haven't fully trusted my legs to support me

3. living in a new place- part of me wants to just hide in my room in fear of exploring Stamford and meeting people

4. becoming fat (this is said in all seriousness, I know...it's an issue haha)

5. I'm afraid to start writing more often because as much of a therapy it is, the tangents I go on can be so unhealthy

6. not working to my full potential- in everything! I have sometimes too high of standards for myself 

7. afraid I won't find a partner for my life, I have seen some great love around me and I want it 

8. I am soooo scared of getting old! Sounds crazy but I think about it all the time

9. bugs and rodents FREAK me out! I run in the opposite direction of any of them 

10. I'm afraid of not having any money and if any of you know me, I've been saving since I was 16 and HATE spending any of it. 

....I'd say 10 is enough and facing these fears one by one will be my first goal (I will keep you all updated!)

What are your fears and how are you going to face them?!

P.S I also just decided these fear posts are going to be a theme...so be prepared for more and more.