If someone told me when I was growing up that a huge part of life is learning how to live, I would've either been really confused or I would've said, "um hello...living right now." But...I always think back to that quote about living vs. existing (above) It's so easy to exist, to wake up, go to work, go to the gym, make dinner, hang out with family, friends, significant others, go to bed and do it all over again. To go through the motions and be alive, we all do it and its damn easy, but to live, to actually experience each of those moments is a whole 'nother story.
Truly living can be so rewarding, like when you lift a weight you never thought you'd be able to or when someone you care about you compliments you. It can also be draining and painful, the negative emotions resulting from existing can overwhelm you and drag you down. Hell, I'm a living example of that today.
So what do I do? Retreat and try to just exist and push those feelings deep inside of me until they are ready to explode (aka about twice a day), but what do I want to do, what should I do. I should finish up my work day, go to the gym and really experience the workout and not just do it, and then I should go home, enjoy some dinner and TV with my new roommate and then go into my bed and write in my journal (definitely my best and most neglected form of therapy).
What should you be doing to live and not just exist?
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