Crossfit Changed My Life

The words I am about to write will make me vulnerable, open my life up to people who may know me well or that don't know me at all.

Crossfit changed my life.

 We can probably all say those 4 words and mean them, but to each of us they mean something different, from making us stronger, to helping us cope with weakness in other areas of our life, to losing or gaining weight and for others just for having some fun. 

For me, it runs deep. The past (I would like to say 2), but the past 5 years of my life have honestly been a struggle for me. I had no idea where I belonged in this world and I was always trying to grab onto something to control. When I went away to college it meant starving myself and throwing up, then it became excessive drinking, and at some points I lost myself in my studies. I went to school positive I was going to be a doctor...I didn't make it. I turned to law school, I got in and I panicked last minute and didn't go. My parents separated and my family was thrusted apart. I constantly sold myself short when it came to men and dated people that didn't and could never appreciate the person that I am. 

I was lost. For five years.

 I worked my ass off in college because it was an escape. An escape from my lack of social life, the depression and anxiety that plagued me on a daily basis and the self esteem that barely reached my knee caps. I lost two of my best friends in less than a year. 

I was drowning. 

And then Crossfit found me. At first I was hesitant. Hesitant to talk to people at my box, to lift a heavier weight, to feel comfortable in my own body, my muscles, my soreness. I look back at this  and smile.

I am no longer lost. I am strong. I am on the journey of life and the journey of Crossfit. The journey to embrace those moments when life puts me at my lowest, when I fail a heavy lift, when my time in a metcon just isn't where I want it to be. I no longer run from them and let them run rampant in my life, I face them. I discipline myself and take control of my life. After all, it is mine right?

Crossfit taught me that I can push myself to my limits, that I can and will succeed and that I am in control.

Crossfit changed my life.

How did it change yours?